One of the first activities I ever did on the internet was post on my Live Journal, next to AIM of course (millennial here 👋🏽). The birth of this Hauntingly Holographic blog seems to exude a full circle moment. 

Oh, how different my intention was with Live Journal as a teen but yet so interestingly similar to this new blog. I am still here to express myself as I did 20 some years ago. But, my perspectives have shifted; I have learned so much and my intention is not highly driven by a desperation to be praised and seen.

I will admit, I am still working through these childhood wounds. But, it’s not from these fractures I am finding myself creating this reinvented journal. Because even though I was and still am on occasion clinging to be seen, I am also ridiculously afraid of being seen, even more so frightened of being rejected and in turn mortified of being isolated and alone.

So, in the past, I would have subconsciously yet strategically fabricated a mask over my real self, hiding the aspects I deemed unloveable and projecting unauthentically the ones I thought would bring me love and acceptance. Now, my pencil flows effortlessly on my page as I speak from my genuine core…

Expressing my actual truth,
Jumping off the cliff of possibly 
Facing rejection and isolation,
Pouring my soul freely 
Into the boundless cosmos
For any and all to see.

🖤 E